2010. I wonder what I thought life would be like in 2010 back when I started this blog. I wonder who I thought I would be. I can say with confidence that my expectations from life were completely skewed. I'm not sure I even comprehended the concept of a lifetime - every day was a great adventure rather than a compilation of time devoted to an end result.

Hardship has come to head for many of my friends and family, and for most of America in this time. We have been forced to cut back on extravagant lifestyles and reassess what things we really value.

I do not believe in making excuses, and I know that every decision, big or small, that I make represents my character to others. People who have been made to suffer the consequences of past decisions can be brought to a level of desperation that reveals their vulnerability and the motive behind what they are doing. This is true with over using credit, over eating, and over indulgence in drugs and alcohol. Over spending raises a red flag to creditors and there is a constriction on available credit - which in turn restricts spending and the problem forces itself to be dealt with. Over eating leads to obesity, which leads to health problems that threaten death if they are not dealt with. Usage of drugs and alcohol quickly turns into addiction, which escalates and can quickly send a person desperately on the hunt for money to obtain the next fix, even if it means personally violating family members and friends. Most people battle one or more of these three issues within their lifetime.

I take complete responsibility for the mistakes I made that brought me to my desperate fight against one of those evils. That defeat brought me back to basics and made me seriously re-evaluate my position on this earth and as an individual. I had to pinpoint the things that I would not sacrifice in the process of becoming me...the things that defined me as I was then and were unquestionably a part of who I wanted to become.

The most desperate moment of my life was the moment I my family in on everything; when I asked for help. Have you ever felt that a mistake you made, in the moment it was revealed, somehow bared your entire soul rather than a bad decision? Well, there is a difference between taking responsibility for a mistake and asking for help dealing with it, and bringing a problem to the feet of others with expectations of help but no plans for change. I was lucky to find that my family believed in my intent to change - and that gave me faith in my ability to make the changes I had in-confidently set my sights on making. The problem, when evaluated by a group of people who truly wanted to help and were not submerged in it, suddenly seemed easy to defeat.

Over the past two years I have gone from what I thought was the lowest and most unstable point in my entire life, to the true rock bottom, and started working my way back up. I haven't found my way to the happiness, almost weightlessness, that I felt when I was in high school, when life was a fantasy waiting to come true.

It's not that I feel I have experienced the worst that life is going to throw at me, but I have simplified life to a point that allows me to look at the big picture and see what I want the outcome to be, instead of what I want to do tonight or have right now. I found that this moment can be both a work in progress and a fantasy coming true at the same time. I know that if I am taken away at any point on this path, I will have lived my purpose.

20-10, like it's never been.

Still alive and kickin. Or at least I am. Since I last posted, Chantel , my mom, Herricks mom, and Chris H have passed away. Its been a crazy year. I look back on all of the things I said (good and bad) about all of them and just now realize how much they molded me into what I am now.

I live in Everett now with my boyfriend Chris.

Thought I would update this blog after ohhh what has it been now? five months? lol. Well I decided that Im going to update on here until I graduate from Highschool and then print out all the pages and keep them in a scrap book as a memior of my highschool years. So here are some blogs that Ive left on my Myspace since my birthday:

Saturday, November 12, 2005
Life doesnt slow down..not one bit Current mood: astonished Category: Life
Senior year is blowing by so fast I dont even know what to do with myself. Im stuck in a whirlwind of activity and I cant even slow down to see who Ive lost in all the confusion. Im working two jobs, have no car (mine is in the shop), and I am desperately trying to scrape enough money together to get my ass down to Virginia in ONE MONTH. There are deadlines approaching for my senior project, college essays due, school work, bills to pay...
Here is a basic run down of my life right now. Ive been working about 6 hours a day..between 4 and 10 on week nights after I get home from school. Then on weekends Im working either 6:30 AM - 4 PM or 4 PM - 11 PM. The upside is the fact that I make about 75$ in tips per 4 hour serving shift. The downside is a falter in my grades. My main dilemma right now is money. I am raking it in...but there is so much demand in my lifestyle that NONE of the things I need or want are getting paid for. My car, as I said, is in the shop for the second time this week. Ive dropped 200 dollars on it since last Sunday. Not including the insurance Im paying tomorrow. It is rediculous because that car isnt worth shit. One night last week when I got home from work..I was really stressed out and overly frusterated with my car..so I told my mom that I didnt care what kind of debt it put me in..I NEED A NEW CAR. And by new I dont mean a 10 year old peice of shit that is going to break down on me and cost me hundreds of random dollars that I dont have. To my great suprise..she agreed. I thought she would immediately shoot the idea down by telling me that I dont have enough of an income to be making obligations with money that are so high. She knows it is worth it though..so we have been car shopping and I am looking for a 2003 or newer with less than 30K miles on it. My only criteria is this :
- no body damage-not too expensive-not maroon, red, white, green, silver or champagne (basically blue or black..)- automatic-cute. :)and Im not settling until that is what I drive. The plan is to save up enough money to put a 2500$ down payment on a car..after selling my current car for about $1500..and then be making 300$ a month payments on it until its paid off in about 5 years. That leaves me with enough money to buy a $20,000 car. Anyways..thats what my life is all about right now. Rubys and car shopping. And school I guess. No boys..except Im interested in a few, and soccer is about to end which Im sad about cuz I havent even played in 5 games this season.

Hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving..I probably wont be posting for a couple more months..unless I get a car :) or if I go to Virginia..which god willing, I will!

PS. I applied to Chaminade..and now I dont think I want to go there. I am actually considering community college for a couple years so I dont get into huge amounts of debt. . .because OH I forgot to tell you: my dying grandpa hates me
Currently listening: 100 Years By Five for Fighting Release date: By 15 June, 2004
11:16 PM

Thursday, December 08, 2005
two quotes to live by. and by no means religiously Category: Life
So...Im going to Virginia in about 3 weeks, the semester ends in about a month..and I applied for Chaminade. Today I got a letter from my grandparents telling me they will only pay for my tuition if I choose a school in Washington. Which I am not very inclined to do..even though I do know that I could get a good education here. There are a couple other factors I need to take into consideration (cost of living..occupations..racism) anyways I heard these two quotes recently and they are amazing.

When I get where Im going on the far side of the sky, the first thing Im going to do is spread my wings and fly. When I get where Im going, I will love and have no fear.

"I feel like its all passing me by so fast, that I should stop and take it all in!""That's what memories are for. You will remember every second of it."

So true.
<3
6:11 PM

Wednesday, January 25, 2006
College can really just stop stressing me out AT ANY TIME now Current mood: pessimistic Category: School, College, Greek
You know, with all of the "information", financial aid and advice readily available to students heading off to college, it would seem to me that preparing for the journey would NOT be so difficult. I am beyond the point of stressed out, I have no clue who to turn to for advice about financial help (because I dont qualify for FAFSA and I am not black or mexican I apparently have no right to need assistance in that department), and I feel like my dream of going to Chaminade is completely impossible. I wish I could just make up my mind and say
"Im going to Chaminade. Im moving there in July and I am going to be a forensic scientist 4 years from today."
But there is sooo much surrounding that simple goal that its like Im stuck turning in circles begging for help. Yeah, I did apply for scholarships. None of them were awarded to me. They say that 6000 scholarships go un-claimed each year, well maybe they should make them attainable by students. Yes, I applied to Chaminade, and was accepted. But now since I will need to live in a dorm I have to apply for housing, which costs 300$. JUST TO APPLY ! And then 6000$ a year thereafter to pay the rent. Now that my grandpa has pulled out all means of support (due to my decision not to stay in Washington) I am left on my own with nobody to co-sign and nobody to point me in the right direction.
How do people manage to do this?!?! Im so frusterated and I dont know which step to take first. Should I apply for student loans before I know if my grandpa will give in and help pay? Should I be looking for an apartment in Hawaii? Shouldnt I be doing SOMETHING to get the ball rolling? ew. I hate all of this indecision!
College makes me want to cry. Im so scared, confused and annoyed. Where are the college counselors who CARE? All of you Juanita people know that Mr Peretti is of no use to anybody who has a serious question. So who do I ask? I dont want to give up on my dreams because nobody knows Im TOTALLY FUCKING LOST right now
2:24 PM
- comments to blog:

*SPANK ME DADDY*
well, don't give up. i know that you can go to that school. look for more scolarships, there are tons of them around, you don't have to be a mexiacan or asian or black to get one. i'm going to bcc and i thought my financial aid would cover everything but it didn't i had to pay more than i thought. anyways, don't worry you have almost a year to do everything. call the financial aid office for chaminade. they will help you. i'm not surprised that they haven't done it for you. so just try and finish high school and talk to the finanical aid office. i hope this helps. bye.

rachel
Posted by *SPANK ME DADDY* on Thursday, January 26, 2006 at 8:41 AM

..Chantizz..
i totaly understand your passion to be a forensic scientist, you have always known Chaminade was where you wanted to be, and honestly i think no matter how many years in debt you become you should apply for financial aid (and try and get more scholarships) and just go. i know it sounds easier than it is done but i think you would regret not going. Chaminade seems to be the best in specializing in forensics which would be a great opportunity but at the same time there are smaller opportunities here in washington. good luck with your decision babe!

<3..Chantel
Posted by ..Chantizz.. on Thursday, January 26, 2006 at 9:01 PM

Friday, February 24, 2006
If you arent easily offended by religious debate:
Current mood: scared
Buy "The End Of Faith". It is the most intelligently written book I have ever come accross in my life:"The doors leading out of scriptured literalism do not open from the inside. Tell a devout Christian that his wife is cheating on him, or that frozen yogurt can make a man invisible, and he is likely to reqiure as much evidence as anyone else, and to be persuaded only to the extent that you give it. Tell him that the book he keeps by his bed was written by an invisible deity who will punish him with fire for eternity if he fails to accept its every incredible claim about the universe, and he seems to require no evidence whatsoever.""If religion addresses a genuine sphere of understanding and human necessity, then it should be susceptible to progress; its doctrines should become more useful rather than less....It cannot survive the changes that have come over us- culturally, technologically, and even ethically."Amazing. I strongly recommend this book to anybody with an open mind. It is very powerful and will not fail to at least slightly alter the way you look at the world of religous faith.Hillary
Currently listening: Goodbye My Lover By James Blunt Release date: By 24 January, 2006 1:01 AM
comments to this blog:

holy rattlesnakes.
oh hillary you're my hero
i could go on and on but i'll leave it at that.
Posted by holy rattlesnakes. on Thursday, March 02, 2006 at 8:25 PM]


Friday, March 03, 2006
My Perspective On Love Current mood: awake
Im sick of people telling me I am shallow. I am fully aware of the fact that I have extremely high standards when it comes to guys, I admit that I dont even give most guys a chance unless they are so persistant that I wont be able to get them to go away until I do. The fact is, I dont need to lower my standards and be content with whatever comes at me. I am SO YOUNG and have so much time ahead of me, I dont see a point in rushing into a relationship with somebody who isnt exactly what Im looking for, only to find 5 years down the road that there is somebody better for me. I am happily single, and I dont feel the need to be emotionally supported or dependant on somebody else. There are so many things going on in my life right now that are driving me mad without the added jealousy, drama, time consumption and emotional drainage of a boyfriend. Yes, there are many upsides to having a boyfriend..but at this point in time I am satisfied with the friendships Ive made and the time I get to spend with those close friends.This is not to say that people are wrong to be in relationships at this time in their lives, to each his own, there are different reasons that people are involved with eachother and in some cases people have already found their 'special somebody'. Congratulations on that, I am not trying to offend you at all. The point of this is to let the people who are constantly talking me down because of my standards know that I have the right to decide who I will get involved with, I also am not any less mature because of the fact that I realize I am not ready for a serious relationship. If anything, Im more mature because I have the ability to disipher between my own emotional problems that make me want to feel validated, and my longing for a boyfriend. The two things, in my mind, should not be relative to eachother.
Hillary
Currently reading: The End of Faith: Religion, Terror, and the Future of Reason By Sam Harris Release date: By 10 October, 2005
1:42 PM

comments on this blog:
RHYS
ohh i love you and your not shallow
Posted by RHYS on Friday, March 03, 2006 at 3:10 PM

Caitlin
ohhh hillary. u know u arent into guys anymore anywyas. thats why we started our club. annd i agree 500,000,000% on this blog.
loveeee you.
Posted by Caitlin on Friday, March 03, 2006 at 3:26 PM[Remove] [Reply to this]
Dry Heave
A couple of things I've learned about relationships.
? Dating should prepare one for marriage. Well if you don't plan on getting married, date anyways, right?
? You shouldn't have a boy/girl friend to complete you. Get one to accentuate you. Yeah that makes 'em sound like an accessory, but isn't that what girls are anyway.
And why 'settle'? That just means you couldn't find anyone better. You're 18, you have a good 15 years of prime poon time left. Then bag yourself a SugarDaddy.
Posted by Dry Heave on Friday, March 03, 2006 at 7:54 PM

♥[Priscilla]♥
AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!

ILY!
And this is soooo true!
Posted by ♥[Priscilla]♥ on Saturday, March 04, 2006 at 8:19 AM

~♥Kaitlin♥~
your amazing! go Hillary!
Posted by ~♥Kaitlin♥~ on Saturday, March 04, 2006 at 5:18 PM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Marriage. Category: Life
Contrary to what you might think after reading my previous blogs..I am not actually a heartless emotionless a-sexual bitch. I do believe in marriage and relationships. I dont believe in using another individual in an effort to find your inner self. I KNOW that the only way to find the person within you is through self investigation and through life experience. Today I watched "When Harry Met Sally" and I found some things very insightful. Then I (if you know me, you know I should probably marry Google) googled some quotes about love (family and intimate) and marriage; so since they represent much of what I beleive, I wanted to share some of them on here."The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother.You need only do three things in this country to avoid poverty - finish high school, marry before having a child, and marry after the age of 20. Only 8 percent of the families who do this are poor; 79 percent of those who fail to do this are poor.
Get Married Stay Married What a concept
I knew couples who'd been married almost forever -- forty, fifty, sixty years. Seventy-two, in one case. They'd be tending each other's illnesses, filling in each other's faulty memories, dealing with the money troubles or the daughter's suicide, or the grandson's drug addiction. And I was beginning to suspect that it made no difference whether they'd married the right person. Finally, you're just with who you're with. You've signed on with her, put in a half century with her, grown to know her as well as you know yourself or even better, and she's become the right person. Or the only person, might be more to the point.
Dear Abby: Some months ago, you printed a letter from a reader who was disturbed that the spark was gone from her marriage. I asked my husband whether the spark is gone from our 18-year marriage.His response: "A spark lasts only a second. It lights a fire. When the flame burns down, we are left with the hottest part of the fire, the embers, which burn the longest and keep the fire alive.""
Basically, I dont support marrying for the purpose of love. I will marry smart; to a man with a strong moral base, similar political and religious values, an honest heart, strong will, and a means to support himself if I were to die unexpectedly. I hope he will expect the same from me. Hopefully those things combined, plus a love that never fails for both of us at the same time, will help me to create the best possible lifelong match for myself.
7:28 PM

Comments on this blog:
holy rattlesnakes.
oh it's smart but it lacks romance! just marry some one european.
Posted by holy rattlesnakes. on Saturday, March 11, 2006 at 12:29 PM

really now, its been over a month since I posted. haha, sorry about that. I just havent been able to sit down and take a break from life at all since senior year started. But I wanted to post tonight because it is a huge turning point in my life. I turn 18 tomorrow! and along with all of the excitement of that, homecoming is on Saturday. There is some serious conflict in my house right now regarding many family issues (my grandparents ignoring my sister and I even though my grandpa is literally deteriorating more and more each day, and my mom and aunt are in a huge money dispute about Dans remodel work on Eileens house). The homecoming issue that I am having to deal with though, is that my mom isnt letting me stay at the hotel that we rented for that night. I have made an obligation to my friends to pay for $30 of the $300 room, and all the sudden my mom told me I cant go. And I havent even told her that I am staying out all night tomorrow for my bday. I pretty much know that the reason she is saying no is for 3 reasons:

• 1) she has some seriously deep rooted control issues. she has always tried her best to implement her authority over me and Shalia.
• 2) she is grasping desperately to me because I am the youngest child and I will be a full grown ADULT tomorrow morning. She has 4 hours to get out the last of the little maternal instincts she was born with, and has been trying to use for the last 21 years.
• 3) she wants to prove to me that just because I am 18, I can NOT do whatever I want. Which I already realize, but she isnt sure of it.

Im almost positive that after this weekend Im going to be kicked out of my house. Because even though my mom doesnt want me to go to these overnight parties, Im going anyways. I know how to take care of myself, and I dont see a reason why I should have to be home at 1AM when the dance ends at 12ish. Thats seriously not even enough time to drive to Bellevue and get back, not to mention that I am not driving that night so I will end up coming straight home before people go to the room. Fuck that!

Im psyched for tomorrow!! I have school, then right afterwards me and Cait are gonna come home and steam out the wrinkles in our dresses, and then we are going with Chantel to get manicures and pedicures, then we are going shoe shopping ( I still dont have homecoming shoes). At 7 everybody is meeting at my house (Chantel, Caitlin, me, Rhys, Michael Sordhal, Michael Elvidge, Guy, Rachael and Steve) and we are driving to Bellevue for a formal dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. Its going to be sooo bomb!! All the guys are wearing khaki pants and button up shirts, and the girls are wearing formal dresses, high heels and everything!! After dinner, we are going to Nathans house and having a party, plus Eileen and Aaron and maybe a couple other people. It is honestly going to be everything I could have wanted from an 18th birthday party, except the fact that I wont have permission to stay out all night. But whatever, my mom can deal, or I can just come home at 3 AM totally wasted! lol.
Friday I am pretty much spending the day getting ready for homecoming, and then at night I am going out to dinner with my mom, sister and Dan, and probably getting yelled at for the night before. . . and then earning browning points so I dont get evicted Sunday morning when my mom realizes I am not home.
Saturday is homecoming and I dont even know how to describe the fun I am expecting to have. Its going to be amazing!!
Sunday I work from 12-8PM at Pizza Hut, and then I will have a shit load of homework to catch up on.

I got a job at Rubys diner! I am a server there, and my first day was yesterday. I am really stoked about the job because I get to wear SUCH a cute uniform! Plus it is an awesome environment.

I need to go do laundry and get my room straightened out, pick out an outfit for my big day tomorrow, and then take a shower. So, Happy Birthday To ME!

And Happy Halloween, in case I dont get a chance to update again before then

Peace out players,
Hillary

Chelan was an absolutely amazing vacation. I learned so much about all the girls I was with, and finally had a chance to REALLY get to know Liz. If any of you ladies read this..I dont even care about all the drama that went down- I honestly think that week with you was one of the best in my life.

Thats the past though..and school has started again. Here is whats new:
My mom bough Dan a 2006 truck to repay him for the remodel on our house, and they just sold his old truck for $5,000.
I might be getting a lap top because my mom wants me to have one if I go to Chaminade
I am about to apply to Chaminade (stressful beyond belief)
The fucking highschool hasnt assigned me a first period yet, but I think I am going to be Mr Bennetts TA. If not..I will be doing running start and sleeping in until 9 30 on Tuesdays, 8 on Wednesdays. Hella bomb!
I got a new cell phone cuz mine was a total and utter peice of crap. It wouldnt end calls, it wouldnt charge, it wouldnt show anything on the little screen..and my new one cost fucking $300. Hella not cool lol..and I am in debt to my mom

Im in biotech this year and it is sooo amazing. We looked at pipettes and micropipettes today and I was like jaw-on-the-floor interested. I think I look like a huge nerd to everyone in the class who isnt as into this stuff as me, but Ive been waiting to take the class for 4 years now, so fuck them! I think my hardest class is going to be AP lit 2, but just because of the work load..not difficulty.

About guys. I still think Im going to stay single for a long time, but I am really into a couple guys right now. One is only 16 years old, one is an old flame, and the other was a one night stand in Chelan. I just want to get to know them all better , probably as friends in the long run. Im most interested in the youngen tho lol :)

Peace out, I gota go do some reading before bed!
Hillary

Chelan is a bit fucked over because of a couple people that are coming. But I am not going to let it get me down..even though I wont get to Chelan until SUNDAY morning at like 3AM instead of Saturday at 2PM. Basically Kristin and Liz both have to work, and Kristin let herself get scheduled to work at both of her jobs so she is making Caitlin cover her shift at outback tomorrow night. So Eileen and Chantel are going to head up on Saturday and keep the site for us while Kristin Liz Cait and I are going to do a midnight trip, arriving Sunday earlyearly morning. With me and my ghetto ass car doing the driving. Its all good though, because I havent even started packing yet..and I need to do a lot of stuff around the house before I leave. Plus my mom and Dan are out of town so I can party or do whatever I want tonight when the girls spend the night. Im excited!! this week is going to be so awesome, and then it will be time to crack down and get back into school. :'( Im so sad about that! But I AM A SENIOR! lol.

This summer has definately lived up to the expectations I had for it. I think in the entire 2 months we have had so far, I have only spent ONE full day at home. In the past, I would have like 5-10 random lazy days in the summer, but this year- there is just no time! If I dont work, I am out with friends or up in Anacortes babysitting. And at night... good lord! let me tell you about my nighttimes this summer.
The first night of summer when Kelly spent the night and we watched Disney movies and he asked me out. There have been nights where Im so shitty that I can barely even function. Nights where I ended up kissing a lonnnng(!!!) time crush (wow that was a great night). Nights that ended in me crying over a boy (those are done with for a LONG while I hope). Nights where Caitlin, Chantel, Kristin, Liz and I had boys over in the guest house and stayed up all night talking and laughing about the past. Nights where Ive ended up sitting on the sidewalk waiting for plans to come together until the time I had to go home. Nights that Ive been working until 1 AM. Nights at Rachaels house!! Nights when me Chantel and Helen went swimming in the lake at 11PM. Nights spent hot tubbing. Nights when Kelly and I would look for parties. Nights when we found parties and got wasted, then made out for countless hours. Nights when the girls and I went to parties and forgot who the designated driver was supposed to be. One night hanging out with Cassandra Joy; The loveliest girl I have ever known, and the most fun to hang out with in a parking lot with drunk boys. And the funnest of all the nights, when we all went to the Carnival and went on rides, laughing our asses off the whole time. All of the nights this summer are ones that I will never forget, and same goes for the people I shared them with.

Haleluja for the fact that I havent had any near death situations so far this summer.

I cant even IMAGINE how much fun I am going to have in Lake Chelan. I mean..I will be with the girls I love most in this world, my family *including my wonderful grandpa*, and most likely some sexy ass boys. Who could ask for anything more? Well I guess you could ask for some alcohol..but we've got a shit load of that too!! hahaha I love it.

I promise that when school starts up again, and my computer gets re-hooked up to the internet, I will update this webpage WAY more!

And for anybody who has been a loyal fan of this site since sayyy last December..did you ever wonder who that mystery guy was? The one I talked about all the time? well thats the one I finally got to like me back this summer. And we kissed . And then I told him I couldnt get involved. His name is Skyler. I still think he is an amazing person, everything that I said about him in here before is 100% true, plus some more great stuff I have recently learned..but I just am NOT a relationship person, and some of the things him and I would talk about were making me antzy. Making me think he was going to want to get really serious- really fast. So, I think I am going to stay single until I head into college, I just dont need any ridiculous commitments like that in my life : at this time.


<3>

I broke up with Kelly last night. There was nothing huge that lead to the break up (actually there kinda was but he never found out about it so not REALLLY) Anyways. Im single, and Chelan is in



LESS THAN ONE FUCKING WEEK! omg Im soooooooooooo excited you have no freaking idea. Like seriously, this is going to be the best year yet. But..I have to go now cuz I got some shopping and stuff to do today and I might go over to Skylers. So have a good rest of the summer in case I dont get to post in here again!

Hillary

Kelly Comes Home On Saturday!!

(he has only been gone like 2 days..lol)

So Ive obviously become really distant from this blog. Its not something intentional, but my computer at home is broken and so the only internet I have access to is on my moms comp..which I would rather not leave traces of this website on because it could lead to me getting in major trouble for talking about all the things I do in here. Anyways, Im in Anacortes babysitting right now, and I usually leave little blog entries on my Myspace, so I am going to post those entries on this page in case anybody is wondering how my life has been for the last few weeks!

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July 9th: Im sooo happy!! Us girls got together and worked out the issues that we were having with eachother, and yesterday was fucking awesome!
Funniest part of last night - sex talks! omg lol and that erotic story that we read. WTF I will never in my life look at a nerdy librarian the same way! lol
Im so happy we got all this shit worked out!
Hillary

July 13: Tonight was freaking AWESOME ! After work, Chantel, Caitlin, Eileen and I went to the beach and went swimming. It was hella fun. Then Chantel and I went on some wild n crazy excapades (w.c?) all over town and laughed our asses off. We went to see when the Totem Lake carnival starts (thursday at 3. Everyone go at 9ish tho!), and the guys running it were begging us to come hang out with them..but we said no that we would come back on Thurs and then Chantel did her gangster hand signal and said "PEACE OUT!" hahaha. Then we took a wrong turn and ended up in Billys parking lot. So we went up and said hey to him and Beth (Beth has some awesome new hair color) and then we went to work and hung out for a while. There was a very interesting party of people in there ... ... and then we went to Eileen's. Parrrrty! Omg so we had to take Truffles on a walk, and Cait and I were in our wet swim suits and shit, so we wrapped ourselves in a blanket (two of us in one blanket..we looked fucking awesome!) and went hobbling down the street. It worked for a while, but then we tripped on some unknown thing, and both almost toppled down a hill. But we started laughing sooo hard that I realized I needed to pee. All I have to say about that is :
" Put your hands on the fence!!!"
Hope everyone else had as fun(ny) of a day as I did!
Careful how you treat me baby; I don't think I'll accept your sorry invitation:Close the door as you leave

July 18th: The weather outside is CRAZY BEAUTIFUL! Today I went to the beach with Kelly, Kevin, Kristin and Liz and we swammmm and tannnned and went to kidd valley. Dont get a pineapple shake from there. They are impossible to drink with a straw! Then I dropped everyone off at their houses and Kelly and I watched NEWLYWEDS at my house in the cool temperature downstairs! THEN when he went to work, I cut me some cantelope and laid in my back yard reading my book. awww what an awesome day! Now Im gona work out for a bit if Dan will get off the X box, and then take a shower and get ready for what the night will bring! What a great day!
Hillary

July 22nd: Im having some serious ISSUES coping with the idea of something that is going on in my life..I dont know why but I just can NOT accept it to be true..and I cant bring myself to talk to anyone about it. Everything is going so great and this summer has been the best one that Ive ever experienced...but this one thing is seriously tearing me apart. And it really shouldnt be at all. Its really hard to explain how or why I dont have faith in it, but there are just too many small things happening that make the situation Im in seem unbelievable.
I guess all I can do is hope this feeling fades away soon..before I cant take it anymore and I do something I might come to regret.
Wierd as it may sound after that rant..today was SPECTAC! and I had so much fun at Lake Wenatchee with all you cool cats that went! We should def. do it again!

Yesterday!! Tomorrow is a BIG day for me! And for Barbie AKA Caitlin! TOmorrow is her 17th bday and everyone is going to wild waves to celebrate. Oh, except for ME of course because I am going to be driving up to Anacortes and babysitting all day. BUT at 5 PM, I am hopping in my car and driving my ass over to her place so we can have a party at night! IM SO EXCITED! and then we are spending the night at her hosue and going to the beach the whole next day. That is until 4 when I work. I have so many hours next week..its great!! And then KELLY will be coming home hopefully! And Tava (Dans daughter) is bringing her >1 month old baby over to stay with us for 10 days! Im sooo exxcited! I Looooove little babies! And then I might be going to Ross Lake with Chantels fam and Caitlin from the 8th to the 11th..and then babysitting on the 12th, and then CHELAN FROM THE 13th TILL THE 20TH!! And then babysitting until school starts. omg how gay is that? my whole summer is planned out until school starts again. I want to CRY! and look, Kelly is only mentioned in there ONCE! I better be going camping with him at the beginning of August like we are planning, or I just might die!! lol J/K..!


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So yeah life is going pretty great right now. Chelan is in less than three weeks, and we got an RV site reserved today! I just washed my car and the Marquee emblem fell off of the back :'( so I need to get me some auto glue and put that shit back together! Anyways Time to get DRUNNK tonight!! lol have a good time until I post again!


Hillary :)

I havent written forever, but heres an update:
My grandpa is out of the hospital and doing great. I think Kelly and I are driving up there on Monday to go to the beach and see how everything is going around Anacortes.
Kristin, Liz, Chantel, Helen and I almost got in a humongous fight the other night after Chantel Helen and I went and jumped in the lake. We didnt call the twins and they got pissed on top of other things that were bothering us all. So we decided we needed to have a talk and figure it out. Heres how it went!!!

Im sooo happy!! Us girls got together and worked out the issues that we were having with eachother, and yesterday was fucking awesome!
I got up and went to Starbucks to meet with Chantel Helen and the twins..but we decided that wasnt a good place to talk, so we went to Helen's cabana and sat in a big circle and had like a therapy session. lol. I came home and cleaned and did laundry for a while, then Caitlin and Eileen came over to make posters for Caitlins STP bike race thing. Chantel and Kelly also came over a little bit later.. I worked from 5-8 serving, and then Chantel and I came back to my house to get my clothes..We went to Kristin and Liz's and had a baking partty ! We made rice crispy treats and pecan bars for Lynns bake sale, and Kristin and I went to the new safeway to get s'mores fixins. Jessica Simpson had some hella cute pictures in Elle Magazine, so I bought it :) and then we all sat around talking about random stuff alllll freaking night. Helen came over at like 10 a couple hours..and then we decided that we wanted to sleep in the garage house out back. We grabbed a bunch of blankets and magazines and stuff and lugged ourselves out there. Jeff and two of his friends showed up, so Liz and I arranged the matresses (well we thought we were arranging them so that there would be two; but really, we were just seperating the box spring from the matress..) and tried to make our bed while Chantel brushed her teeth and Kristin brought Jeff and his friends in. We all sat on the big bed talking until like 1 30 and then Jeffs friend wanted to leave. When the guys were walking out, Kristin and Liz's step dad saw the guys and told their mom, so their mom came in and was like "WHAT IS GOING ON? THERE WERE JUST THREE BOYS OUTSIDE!" I was hellla scared we were gona be in trouble, but we just told her they stopped by to see what was up and then left..Chantel, Kristin, Liz and I sat and talked about the funniest shit until 3. Then we switched sleeping positions like 100 times and I ended up sleeping with Kristin on this tiny ass twin matress thing. It was actually pretty comfortable until the room started ringing like a phone but nobody knew where the noise was coming from.
This morning Chantel had to leave early for Oregon with Caitlin, so Kristin Liz and I slept until 10 40 and then made crepes for bfast. And then we went to the beach!!! haha funny times there..but yeah a huge black cloud came and hovered over us after we were tanning for about half an hour..so we had to leave. Now Im home and about to clean the house and then I work tonight. After work I might go to Studio B with Kristin Liz and Helen, but Im not sure if my mom will let me out that late..we will see!
Im so happy we got all this shit worked out!
Hillary

Im about to order a bikini from a catalog! I finally found one that I think is cute~~ and its only 20$~ holy shit!! Then Im taking a shower, and Kelly is coming over to watch a movie :) Im excited! I heard this song today and I love love love it so Im posting the lyrics cuz they make me happy!

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be loves suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're My Survival, You're My Living Proof
My love is alive and not dead

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
And I've dropped out, I've burned up,
I fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said
The greatest fan of your life.

Im so worried about my grandpa. We found out that he is at the very highest level stage 3 colon cancer. There are only 4 stages, and hes like 1 week from stage 4. :'( Shalia and I were planning to go visit him in the hospital today, but he is too sick for visitors and doesnt want to see anybody. Not even the nurses. My family needs my grandpa so much. Especially Shalia and I; he is the only loving male influence she and I have ever known. All this worry and we cant even call him to tell him we love him..

There's some things in this world
You just can't change
Somethings you can't see
Until it gets too late
When all your love is gone
Who will save me
From all I'm up against out in this world?
Maybe, maybe, maybe
You'll find something
That's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around
And come on home
I got a hole in me now,
I got a scar I can talk about
Some things in this world
Man, they don't make sense
Some things you don't need
Until they leave you
And they're things that you miss
God's sake turn around
Yeah, come on home

If I could only hold you now
make the pain go away
cant stop the tears from running down my face
how am I going to be strong without you?
I need you by my side
In the end you wave goodbye,
dont know what Id do
I keep trying to find my way
Im lost without you
I keep trying to face the day

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die toI'd die too

Damn..this last month has been absolutely freaking INSANE! I havent written in more than a week, but I want to talk about every single one of the days lol cuz they have been THAT awesome! soo here we go!

• Monday June 20- Went to school and took my law and justice final and then after school I went home to meet up with Chris H. He came and got me and we met up with Eileen in down town Kirkland. The three of us went out to eat at TGI fridays, Eileen and I shared some fish-n-chips while Chris drank a corona..lol. After we ate and hung out at ColdStone for a while, Chris dropped me off at home and got a look around at my house. My mom told me that my car was ready to be picked up from the shop and that the guy fixed it for free (!!!) so Chris drove me down to Bellevue to get it. I got my shit ready and then went to my sisters house. We washed our cars in her driveway until Analena showed up, then we went to Subway for dinner. :) yumm veggie patty. After dinner I went to work for movie night, which was not as cool as we had expected..but not that many people showed so that could be part of the reason. Kelly came by to say hi but his mom called him and so he had to leave before he even got out of his car. I went home around 12 30 AM and went to bed.
• Tuesday 21- LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! I woke up at 7 30 ish and took a shower and got dressed. Caitlin was texting me like crazy about how I needed to get my ass to school before 2nd period cuz she was going to be bored in there all by herself, so I hurried getting ready and then left for school. When I pulled up she called me and was like "uhh nevermind we are leaving" so I went to the councilor to make sure about my classes for next year, and then her Chantel and I went SHOPPING! We went to Fred Meyers and to Old Navy in Crossroads, and then we found this hella awesome store on the side of the road..and we shopped there for a while. We came back to Kirkland and I drove up to Kelly's house. At 11, Kristin Liz Chantel Caitlin Kelly and I met up at RedRobin for lunch. That was fun times, laughing and talking and just having fun. Kelly and I went to Target to try and buy Beauty and the Beast, but the movie has been put in the Disney vault, so we just hung out at his house after that..and then we both had to work. After work I went over to Caitlins house cuz thats where the end of the year party was going on haha. Wow they had a bonfire in her barbeque and drunken people running all over the cold-e-sac. Cait said her mom might come home and call peoples parents, but she was really too drunk to give a fuck..so Chantel and I looked up Tommys new girlfriend in the year book and shit talked her to make Chantel feel better :( and then Caits mom showed up. Somebody shoved a bottle of Skyy vodka into my humongous purse trying to hide it, and then we all had to leave cuz Caits mom wanted to sleep. So Kelly, Kevin, Kelsey(?), Leah, Ameer and I went to the park where a womans corpse was dropped a few years ago. Sick, but we had fun. Kelly drank the skyy from my purse and I had a sparks. I ended up laying right on top of Kelly cuz the ground was wet and I didnt want to mess up my clothes, and he was already laying down lol. So then everybody split up and Kelly and I drove down to a really nice neighborhood and sat in his car playing a music trivia game on his ipod.
• Wednesday 22!! omg what a big day! My mom and Dan left for Mexico at 4 AM on Weds morning. I got up and Kelly called to see if I wanted to have a movie day. (it was raining outside). so I went and got him and he brought his playstation (to play DVDs on) and a bunch of movies. We camped out in my moms room all day watching Shrek 2 and some warrior movie. Then we went to Starbucks and I got a RASBERRY LEMON LOAF! mmmm :) and then we rented Beauty and the Beast. I dropped him off at home cuz I had to work (serving shift!). Chris came in to see me towards the end of my shift, so I told him to hang around and we could do something when I got off. Kelly and I were supposed to hang out but Kelly texted me saying that he had to go pick up his sister from Bellevue so he wouldnt be available until like 10 30. When I got off work Chris and I went to BaskinRobins and I got some daquiri ice. :) Then I went home and read the National Enquirer until Kelly called to say he was home. So I went and met up with him in the parking lot of Kingsgate 5 pool. He got in the car and said he wanted to clear something up really quick, and then he pulled out a dozen yellow roses and asked me out! it was sooo cute! We went to my house and watched the beauty and the beast, and then got ready for bed. We laid in my bed talking all night..sept he fell asleep for like an hour until my moms alarm clock went off at 3AM. From 3-5 15 we laughed and talked and stuff. funnnnn night! I dropped him off at home around 5 30 and then drove to Anacortes for babysitting.
• Thursday 23 ..I babysat and slept! lol I was freaking worn out..but Michaela went to a friends house and Kingston and I went grocery shopping and to Washington park. We walked the 3 mile loop and then sat at the top look out for a while. I went to bed at like 9 that night..
• Friday 24- the kids and I went to the beach and burried eachother in the sand. Other than that, it was an uneventful afternoon. When Eileen got home from work, I went over to my grandparents house to see how everything was going with my gramps. I visited with them for about an hour, and then left to drop off some Tshirts and Donnas house. I got home around 7 30 ish and went shopping with my sister at Victorias Secret. I got a bunch of new thongs, and some perfume powder stuff that smells HELLA good! Then Caitlin and Chantel and I went munchie shopping at Safeway, and came to my house to have our three person party. All I know is I HAD SO MUCH FUN! lol at 12 30 Cait had to go home to get ready for Arizona, so Chantel and I went to Josh's house and hung out. We ended up going to his boat and sitting there for a while doing nothing...We finally got back to my house around 2 AM and Chantel and I passed the F out.
• Saturday 25- I got up pretty early cuz I had to clean up the mess in my house. Chantel left around 10 30 to go sign up for summer school, and then Chris AND GREGALEG came to get me. We went out to breakfast at Denny's (high class I know) and talked for a long time. I hadnt seen Greg in like 6 months or something, so we had a lot of catching up to do. After we ate, Greg had to leave for a camping trip, so Chris brought me home. We were thinking of going to see a movie, but when we pulled up to my house, Kevin was standing at my front door. So I said bye to Chris and then Kevin and I went into my house. We sat and talked for a while cuz we needed to clear up some of the confusion over the Kelly situation. Now its all good and Im really happy because Kevin and I still have our friendship, and I know now that Kevin WANTS to hear about whats going on, it doesnt make him jealous or anything. he just wants "to be informed". So after our talk, we went to Mervyns and I was looking for a bikini, but there were not very many left to choose from. I ended up buying ANOTHER thong lol and then he dropped me off at home so I could get ready for work. I worked from 4-8 and then picked up Lauren and Joe, we went shopping for alcohol and then went to Rachaels house. Lauren started throwing some sort of hissy fit, so her and Joe left and Rachael and I sat talking for a long time. I love that girl, we have so much in common, but we differ in our beleifs on a lot of things so its easy to get lost in conversation. We talked until 2 in the morning and then I went home cuz she was going to some after party where her boytoy was.
• Sunday 26- when I woke up I called my sister to see if she was going to see my grandparents that day. She was, so I jumped in the shower and got ready while she came over and ate our food. We left and spent the whole day with my grandma and grandpa. Gramps cant eat, so we left him home for a while and went out to lunch and to an antique mall. Grandma let Shalia drive her car (I'd driven it last time I was there) and then we went back and hung out with my grandpa some more. At 6 30 ish Shalia and I left to come home. My mom and Dan were home when I got back :(, I read the National Enquirer and talked on the phone with Kevin for a long time..then went to bed.
• Monday 27- Kelly called me and woke me up. I think we rented Dont Be a Menace and watched that at my house then played cards for a while and then in the afternoon we went to Ameers house. haha that was fun times..I went home and looked over my SAT scores with my mom for a while..we concluded that I did pretty good. In math I got better than 73% of the nation, and in Reading/Writing I got better than 85% of the nation. I was pissed when I first saw those scores, because I usually do hella good on standardized (its sad when I try to say Im smart but I cant even spell the word Im using to describe it...) tests..but whatever the test was early in the morning lol and thats my excuse. After that I went to get Kelly and him and I headed over to Rachaels house. Wow. Wasted night! haha it was sooooooo much fun!!! Kelly left me with a hicky tho :'( and we lost his cell phone sometime over the course of the night..we left to go home around 12 cuz my mom wanted me to be home by 12 AT THE LATEST. I was only 20 mins late lol. Kelly is funny, he is SO scared of doing something to piss her off so he made up this elaborate story that I could call and tell her when I got home. (she was in Anacortes seeing my grandpa) I drank water and went to bed when I got home..
• Tuesday! YESTERDAY! omg we are getting close to me shutting up! lol. I got up at 10 30 and went to Kelly's house. We laid in his bed and talked until like noon..and then went downstairs and made some bfast. we went to the bank so I could get money, and then we went to Alderwood mall. I pulled him into victorias secret for like 5 minutes but they didnt have the shirt I want, so he pulled me out just as quick lol. We ran into Kyle and then Kelly bought some sunglasses and we went to my place. I got the mail, but no report card yet.. :(. Kelly and I helped Dan rip out the carpet downstairs, and then I dropped him off at home and worked until 8 30. Oh GOD I am not even going to get into detail about last night at work. It was fucking insane and we closed at 10 so we could install a new oven. Kelly came and got me from there and we went to Rachaels house to get his cell phone..it was under the couch cushion.. Then we went to Mark Twain park in Kirkland. We swung on the swings and then started calling people to see what was goin on. NOTHING! We decided to go see Batman Begins..so we came to my house and asked my mom and everything, then went to drop of Kellys car at his house. But we were driving behind this slow ass driver, not even kidding they were going MORE than 10 mph below the speed limit..so by the time we left Kellys house we had 2 minutes to get to Redmond. Instead we went to Woodinville, and saw Twitchell! *Alex..* and we decided to see Bewitched. That movie is so funny omg, I laughed SOOO hard at one point. It ended around 12 10, so I dropped Kelly off at home and then came home and slept.
• TODAY! I am up and have been writing this thing for like an hour now..and Im about to hop in my car and get my ass to the gym. Its been WAY too long! Im gona run and run and lift weights for like 2 hours..until I have to come home and get the mail. I dont know whats going on tonight, but I think Kevins calling me around 4 with some ideas. Sweet lol..hope everybody else is having a good SUMMER!

<3 Hillary

So I got one of these survey things off of myspace, and I dont want to answer all the questions so im going to erase the ones I dont like and then leave interesting ones. Theres supposed to be 75 questions so ignore the numbers..
1. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? teeth
4. Have you had braces? yeah
5. Do you pluck your eyebrows? Yup freaking all the time
7. When was the last time you had a hickey? Uhh not in a long time
9. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc..? AIM
10. If so, how many people are on your list(s)? 193
11. If you could live in any past time period, which would it be? I like the age I live in. But probably the 50's because the men were so gentlemanly. Even if they didnt feel that way on the inside, they respected women for the most part.
14. What is your favorite fruit? mmm, mangoes, honeydew melon, star fruit, pineapples, papaya, passion fruit, watermelon....I love them all!
16. What is your favorite place to visit? the bahamas. Oh god Im in love with tropical places!
17. What is the last movie you saw? Mr. And Mrs. Smith with Kelly and Geoff. Gooood movie!
19. Are you photogenic? not at all
26. Did you like or do you like high school? I am growing attatched. Im soo scared for next summer when Im kicked out into the world with only myself to rely on
28. When you are asleep do you like being kissed awake? Im yet to experience that. But Im sure it would be great!
30. Do you want to live to be 100? depends on how the world is working at that time. If its a depressioon and i have no loved ones left, then hell no. But if my husband is still alive and I have grandchildren to enjoy, then of course!
31. Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair? Its not up to me what society expects. But I expect myself to shave and I think its nasty when I dont..
33. Is a flat stomach important to you? its important for me to have a flat stomach..I think its hot on guys but Ive dated a few "butterballs" haha
35. Are you loyal? 100%
36. Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs? as long as they are tolerant of mine and dont try to press theirs on me
37. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? off!! Gotta set the mood you know
40. Do you like your nose? um I guess. Im not in line to get a nose job anytime soon or anything
41. Do you like abstract art? yes...
42. Do you think you can draw well? I like drawing abstract things so I guess..cuz nobody knows what its supposed to be anyways
44. Do you like to watch cartoons? oh GOD yes!
45. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real? young. My sister tried to convince me he wasnt real and then when I started crying cuz I was so frusterated that she didnt beleive, she pulled me into my moms room and showed me all the presents in my moms closet. It was one of the many horrible things my sister did to me when I was little
46. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? umm 30+
47. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety? its all about the flip flops that match your outfit.
48. Do you write poetry? I used to write poetry a lot. like every day but now I dont have time and i dont have as much drama that I need to get out of my head. plus, when there is drama i just write about it in here!
50. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides? I think front and sides
51. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler? I think poodle cuz they are so fluffy and cute
53. Do you use an electric can opener? haha yeah right
55. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? emotional
57. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed? oh god so many people claim to have so many problems nowadays. The only thing thats wrong with them is that they need to much attention and want to feel important.
58. Do you prefer a piano or a violin? I hate listening to both. Its like cruel and unusiual punishment.
59. Are you a sex addict? no
60. Do you know someone who has cancer? my mom and grandma have skin cancer. And my sister I think has some other kind of skin cancerish thing..and 2 of my aunts have had breast cancer. :( sad times
62. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants? ignoring the money part of it, I like expensive restaurants that are laid back. I like The Melting Pot. mmm my favorite restaurant lol even tho I dont eat cheese anymore
65. Are you basically a happy person? at this point in my life I am so far beyond happy its amazing! (besides the whole car situation..)
66. Are you tired? Nope! Ive slept in till noon today and yesterday!
67. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today? havent dranken or eaten anything yet today
69. How many phones do you have in your house? I THINK 3 ground lines and 3 cell phones
70. How long is your hair? umm a little bit past my shoulders
72. What color of eyes do you prefer? green or blue or hazel. Im not a brown eyes lover
73. Are you an active person?I dont think so
74. What medications do you take? none
75. What does your bedroom look like? light pink on the top half, a white border across the middle, and BRIGHT pink on the bottom half!

And my weekend has been freaking unexplainably amazing. I hope things go this way for a longggg time. Long Long Long time. :) Anyways Im off to drop my car off at the repair shop and hope it doesnt cost more than 200$ to fix.

Hillary

Yesterday was freaking CRAZY! I got up for school at 7 cuz Kevin was outside my house waiting to pick me up. (my car is a pice of shit and wont even get me to school anymore) I went to my Chem final and on problem number 2 out of 100, my calculater died. It was TERRIBLE. So I did all the math in my head which was probably not too good either since Ive started to rely on my calculator to do things a simple as multiplication tables and adding. After that, Caitlin and I went to the library to study for my Spanish test. I practiced my speech with her for the whole 50 minutes (ended up getting 27.5/30), and then went to Spanish and BOMBED the final . It was horrible. After school Kevin and I went to his house so he could get his work clothes, then we came here and hung out till 4. Then I drove my car and went in to work and hung out till 5 30 when I clocked on. I was a server so I worked till 9 30 ish and then Kelly came to get me. We went to Geoff's house and decided we wanted to go to a movie, so we looked up the times, piled into Kellys truck and drove to Woodinville. We saw Mr and Mrs Smith. It was really good, there was a lot of action in the movie which I usually get bored of, but it had a good story line so I was really into it. When the movie was over, Geoff had to go to the bathroom so Kelly and I waited downstairs and talked. He put his arm around me :) and then we dropped off Geoff, and Kelly took me to work so I could get my car. I got home around 1 20 and then at 1 50 Kelly texted me and was like "hey I had fun tonight, but next time we should go just me and you. Night beautiful!" awwwww it was so cute lol. And then I slept until NOON! Thank god for weekends!

Anyways I think that today Dans harley driving friends are going to show up and stay with us for a while. My aunt is bringing over my cousins right now so I can babysit them while her and my mom go to home depot and shop. haha. Tonight I work from 4-8 and then Kelly and I are hanging out. I dunno what we are going to do, probably go to Daniels if people are there. Tomorrow I cant go to Anacortes because my car doesnt work well enough, so instead I am driving it to Bellevue and leaving it at this car repair place. Lord knows how Im paying for THAT one!

SCHOOL IS OUT IN LESS THAN 2 DAYS!

Hillary

Today sucked ass. Sept Ameer told me that Kelly might ask me out. That and the text message I got from Kelly waking me up were pretty much the only highlights.

Tomorrow I have 2 finals which I havent studied for whatsoever. And I dont plan on it either. Fuck school.